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If photos were moods, these would be mine:














all images courtesy weheartit

who wants to be right as rain?

Thank you for all your comments on my last post. You all give me such warm fuzzies! It's comforting to know that we're all in this together, and with the help of others, we can be that much better at loving ourselves. Aw. Virtual hugs, all around!

I'm on spring break right now, so I'm lounging around at home. I've been doing a disgusting amount of homework, but not getting nearly as much done as I ought... seems I've piled my plate too high, as usual! But really, it's so restful to be at home and to not have any commitments. I love not rushing around to places.

This is such a non-outfit that I almost feel like it's cheating to post it. But today, I'm really not doing much. I baked some awesome brioche fruit pizza with creme patissiere, did my laundry, and am now planning on sewing. All in all, a good, easy-going day. Not gonna lie, though, I feel a little guilty for not dressing on-theme--shouldn't I be wearing green? It is St. Patrick's Day, and I am part Irish! Maybe I'll change later to make up for it.

sweater / wholesale-dress | leggings / ll bean | flats / target

Speaking of the holiday! Got any plans for tonight? If you're going out, have fun and be safe!

that keeps me so off balance

Here are some photos I took about a week before I left home in September. I never posted this set because I wasn't a fan--and it was a jeans-and-tshirt look. I make it no secret that I hate jeans, but sometimes they're necessary. So yeah, I own a pair or two, but it's been about three months since I've worn them! They're just uncomfortable, and to be completely honest, I don't like the way they look on me. I'd rather have a dress, thanks!



On your own website, it's so easy to completely control the image you put out. You can bet your bottom dollar that I pick through my photos and take out a minimum of two thirds of them, a generous portion because of how I don't like how I appear. Sure, I want to present my best self to the public; what's wrong with that? But maybe there is something wrong if I consistently avoid something (such as pants)--maybe I am, to an extent, being dishonest with my readers. I don't love my shape the way I ought, and I avoid showing off my legs because I can't stand what I look like. I have a screwed-up self image, just like most girls I know. It's not overpowering, but I can't help but let it affect me. Of course I love myself, but at the same time, I often wish myself different.



Does this make any sense? I've tried to put this into a post before but I'm not sure it comes out very coherent. Make of it what you will. I'm not looking for compliments or reassurances; I just wanted to put this in writing to sort out my thoughts a little more--and maybe you can relate and understand a bit! I hope to someday be completely happy with the way I am, but in the meantime, I'm a work in progress. Aren't we all?



top / handmade | jeans / jcpenney | boots / lulu's